At times, we find ourselves awash in a wave of challenging emotions. Think of the global situation right now! A pandemic is an extremely stressful event for anyone and everyone to endure. The tides in our lives have shifted, and it’s normal to feel disappointed, overwhelmed, confused, irritated, angry, impatient – your feelings are entirely valid! You may also find yourself in a new battle with, not only your emotional wellness, but your mental health; depression, exhaustion, burnout, anxiety… Have you noticed your emotional health and mental health shift recently? How have you readjusted to accommodate the change?
Reset Zone is here to provide you with practical tips, tools, and support, to help YOU. We want to help you work through all the emotional challenges you may be battling right now. To ensure we can do this, we are inviting new faces to create more content on the Reset Zone app. Today, we are proud to introduce Bev McLeish.
Bev McLeish is a mother of two, a wife, a writer, and above all, she is a survivor. Bev battled years of anxiety and a seven-year-long depression. Bev used writing as an emotionally expressive outlet, and later compiled her poems into a collection that composed her first book It’s Not Safe to be Happy. Bev’s poetry can now be found in the Reset Zone app too, under the “RZ Daily” section! To better understand Bev McLeish’s work, we have invited her to share her story with us.
Actually, I am not a big poetry fan! Believe me, no one is as surprised as I am about all this! But for some reason, when my depression became less severe, my feelings about what happened to me and the impression the experience had on me kept repeating in my head. Writing it down seemed to allow me to finally let it go.
There are some poems in the book that voice feelings I’d never known were there until I started writing. For instance, the lyrics about childhood asthma caught me completely off guard. It was a formative experience for me, and that’s why I eventually decided to call the book It’s Not Safe to be Happy.
I want to let others know, who are depressed, that they aren’t alone. The thoughts they feel right now, no matter how dark and hopeless, someone else has felt that too and overcome them.
I wrote my book because there is a lot of prejudice and judgement out there, even within the very institutions where we’re told to seek help from. I felt it was essential to give a voice from the perspective of someone amidst the battle. My book was a way to advocate for those who don’t have the strength to speak for themselves yet.
No, not really. There were definitely steps forward but not one monumental mind-blowing revelation that moved me forward in a big way. That’s what everybody thinks is going to happen, but it rarely does.
And I think that’s what’s essential for those who are struggling to understand. When we are in the thick of it, we look for massive change fast because the pain is so bad, we want it to end right away. And the people around us want quick results, so we all look for a fast solution. But the thing is, it took you a long while to get to the point where you are now, so it’s going to take a bit to come out.
But just because you haven’t had a big step forward in a while doesn’t mean that things are never going to get better. In fact, it may mean that things are getting better, they’re just happening slowly, and you can’t see them because it’s happening gradually. Real healing moves slowly, like a burning ember rather than a flashbang.
I would tell them to hang in there. Persevere! You can do it! You can get better, and things around you can improve. I think we can all see how unforeseen events happen and can change things overnight. Now that we are all in our homes and entire countries are in lockdown, I hope people who have never gone through depression begin to understand that the condition doesn’t start with a chemical imbalance but with external events.
What is globally taking place now should remind all of us that we never know what’s around the corner. Yes, it might be something bad, but there is an equal probability that what marches toward us might be good! You just have to hang in there and keep working at it. Don’t give up. If I can do it, I know for a fact you can too.
Throughout the month of may May, mental health awareness month, you will find assortments of Bev McLeish’s poems featured in the “RZ Daily” section of the Reset Zone app. The Reset Zone app provides minute by minute comfort which are the micro steps towards change. Be sure to download Reset Zone’s FREE app on the App Store or Google Play store. Bev’s book It’s Not Safe to be Happy can be purchased here.